I did it. A little irrational but I couldn’t help myself.
I can’t remember the last time I wore a dress, really, I can’t remember. I used to love to wear dresses but as the weight grew and I tried to wear a size appropriate dress, I decided I looked more like a balloon. So at that point I started wearing stretchy waist band pants and shorts. This is a HUGE mistake, they are so comfortable you think you aren’t gaining weight because the waistband expands naturally with your real waist. At the Gym today, my trainor Jess said “you are going to do sit ups today” I looked around to see if she was talking to someone else. I don’t do sit ups I told her, I just am not that bendable. She assured me that there was an easy way and she was right! Jess brought over to me one of those big exercise balls, showed me how to sit on it and start leaning back while rolling forward. Once my shoulders hit the ball I had to stop there. Legs are out bended at the knees in front of me, hands behind my head…….and……crunch forward like the on the floor sit ups. It was so easy and painless. She had me do 3 sets of 12 and I really felt good. Jess told me there are many other exercises that can be done with the various size exercise balls.
Anyway, I was looking on Nordstrom.com and came across a summer dress which was so pretty. I thought, forget it, will never happen. But then I thought why not? An idea formed. Why don’t I buy this dress in a size 12 (my goal, I am not going to be unrealistic and think I will ever be a size 4 which seems to be every woman dieter’s goal), and hang it on the door of my closet so I have to look at it every day. What a motivator! It just came today and it is even prettier than in the picture. I put it on a hanger, ran up to my room, and hung it on my closet door where it is proudly displayed.
Hopefully I will be going to Paris in July to visit Bill and Katie and not be one of the many fat Americans. I can be chic and thin like a French woman (maybe chic and thin is pushing it), or just plain healthy and in good shape. I long to walk the streets of Paris in this dress, or tour le Louvre, or sit at a tiny cafe. Maybe I just want to look and feel good for myself this summer. I know I also want to look good for Dave too! Which ever the case, I AM motivated to move forward on my road to healthier living.