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Weekly Gym Update – 4/28/11


Weigh in day again.  I was a little nervous about the weigh in because of being in Florida last week.  I didn’t go crazy eating and I did exercise, yet anytime I am away, I usually gain weight.  Plus, I must admit there was a little indulgence on Katie’s and my part.

First, I weight trained for 30 minutes with my trainer. She really worked me.  I am still sore from my Tuesday weight training session so watch out tomorrow :).  Then the weigh in. My trainer set the scale to what I weighed two weeks ago.  I took a deep breath, stepped on the scale, and found out……. I lost 1 lb.!  I thought that was fabulous since I hadn’t been to the gym for two weeks and I vacationed some.

I was going to ride the recumbent bike for 15 minutes today after the weight training.  But, I was so happy and uplifted, I wound up riding for 40 minutes!  Boy, do I feel good about today.

The picture above was taken this Easter.  I am 32 lbs. lighter.  If you compare the picture above of me with the picture  (the WORST ever) on my blog “Another weekly weigh in at the gym 🙂 Lost 3 lbs. for total loss of 22 lbs.” you can see the difference.

I am marching forward and am not going to look back.  I am feeling much better then I did before and want to continue on.  My goal is to lose another 30 lbs.  I know I will achieve this, I have no doubts.

PS.    Did I tell anyone I asked for a punching bag for Mothers’s Day?


30 lbs the Gym and the Doctors Appt :)

Yesterday morning I went to the gym.  Healthquest was having a “member appreciation day”.  All kinds of things were going on.  Upon entering the facility there was a “Jester” there to welcome me.  I personally dislike clowns (another blog), they are so evil and creepy.  The problem with Jesters, they too much resemble clowns, so I only was able to give him a brief glance and hurry away. A DJ was playing music, the place was decorated with colorful balloons, lots of free food and beverages plus free water was given to you before you started to exercise.

I entered the track area and was bombarded with crazy LOUD music and about 100 women doing zumba on the first floor.  It was interesting to watch as I walked around the track. I came to the conclusion that I really wouldn’t enjoy doing it.  I wound up walking 3 miles and then I was ready for the gym itself.

I met up with Jess and she had me work primarily upper body.  She is no longer lenient with me, pow!! she brought it on.  By the time I was done, I thought my arms were going to fall off.  This is okay though because my football player arms are shrinking to a normal size.

Next was the weigh in.  I was nervous.  I felt I did well with my eating and at home exercising, yet I kept thinking about the restaurant we went to with Linda and Rich Saturday before.  It was no holds barred, I had whatever I wanted including the chocolate giant brownie with whipped cream.  I will say though, I was too full and afterward as I lay like a beached whale in bed, wished I didn’t eat so much.

I got on the scale, closed my eyes and she said “look!!”, 3 lbs!! I am now officially down 30 lbs!!!, I never thought I could do it.   I am so happy and am definitely feeling and looking better.  Next, week I will post a picture.

I had a doctor’s appointment following the gym.  I need to get my blood pressure checked every few months. I have been on blood pressure medication for 14 years. Even on medication my pressure is on the high side.  The nurse took my pressure twice and both times it was 118/69.  I haven’t had a low blood pressure in years.  When the doctor came in and saw me he was shocked.  I was such a mess both physically and mentally the last time I saw him in November.  When I go in the nurse usually takes my pressure and I don’t see the doctor.  This time he wanted to see me.  He couldn’t believe how much weight I had lost and doing it on my own.  After speaking with me and reviewing my chart he decided to take me off one of the blood pressure medications.  I was thrilled.  I have to go back in 1 month to check but if the pressure is still low I can stay off it and possibly work coming off the other one.

I am proud of my self and energized.  There is no doubt I am going to do this because for the first time in my life, I WANT to do it for me.  I know I am down at least 2 sizes because the jeans I bought a few weeks ago are now too big.  I am glad I only bought 2 pair.  I look forward to the day I can go shopping for normal clothes.  I am going to Paris in July and will need new clothes.  So Dave, credit card here I come!!!!

Weekly Gym and Weight Loss Update

Went to the gym yesterday and signed up for another 12 sessions with my trainer.  The first 12 were over on Tuesday and there was no doubt in my mind that I wanted to do it again.  Left to my own devices I would fail miserably. I would never remember how to work the machines (or the dumbbells for that matter), how many repetitions to do and probably wouldn’t be able to start the treadmill :).  I have a hard time remembering the how and what when Jess trains me, on my own I would be a disaster. The first 12 sessions went by so fast and I really enjoyed it. Especially the progress I made.

After “challenging” me with harder routines, it was time for the weigh in and measurements.  They were taken the first day I started 6 weeks ago so I was really excited.  First I got weighed and lost 1.5 lbs.! Now I am down 27 lbs! Then came the measurements.

I lost:    Chest 1 in.,   Arm 1.5 in.,   Waist 2 in.,   Hips 2 in.,   Thigh 2 in.,  Calf 1/2 in.  A total of  9 inches!!!  I was soooo excited! The workouts definitely have paid off.  This has given me the determination to keep moving forward.  Dave is proud of me, he didn’t think I would follow through going to the gym as well as walking on the treadmill at home.  Previous times I always stopped but this time is different.

The dress I bought is hanging right in front of me when I open my closet door.  I am confident that I WILL be wearing it this summer.  Maybe even in Paris?…………………………………


I did it.  A little irrational but I couldn’t help myself. 

 I can’t remember the last time I wore a dress, really, I can’t remember.  I used to love to wear dresses but as the weight grew and I tried to wear a size appropriate dress, I decided I looked more like a balloon. So at that point I started wearing stretchy waist band pants and shorts. This is a HUGE mistake,  they are so comfortable you think you aren’t gaining weight because the waistband expands naturally with your real waist. At the Gym today, my trainor Jess said “you are going to do sit ups today” I looked around to see if she was talking to someone else.  I don’t do sit ups I told her, I just am not that bendable.  She assured me that there was an easy way and she was right!  Jess brought over to me one of those big exercise balls, showed me how to sit on it and start leaning back while rolling forward.  Once my shoulders hit the ball I had to stop there.  Legs are out bended at the knees in front of me, hands behind my head…….and……crunch forward like the on the floor sit ups.  It was so easy and painless.  She had me do 3 sets of 12 and I really felt good. Jess told me there are many other exercises that can be done with the various size exercise balls.

Anyway, I was looking on Nordstrom.com and came across a summer dress which was so pretty.  I thought, forget it, will never happen.  But then I thought why not? An idea formed.  Why don’t I buy this dress in a size 12 (my goal, I am not going to be unrealistic and think I will ever be a size 4 which seems to be every woman dieter’s goal), and hang it on the door of my closet so I have to look at it every day.   What a motivator!  It just came today and it is even prettier than in the picture.  I put it on a hanger, ran up to my room, and hung it on my closet door where it is proudly displayed.

Hopefully I will be going to Paris in July to visit Bill and Katie and not be one of the many fat Americans.  I can be chic and thin like a French woman (maybe chic and thin is pushing it), or just plain healthy and in good shape.  I long to walk the streets of Paris in this dress, or tour le Louvre, or sit at a tiny cafe.  Maybe I just want to look and feel good for myself this summer.  I know I also want to look good for Dave too!  Which ever the case, I AM motivated to move forward on my road to healthier living.




Today I had to take Hunter to a few doctor’s appointments.  Because one was in the morning and the other in the afternoon, I kept him home from school.   Hunter enjoys the occasional “Mommy – Hunter Day”.  They are few and far between.  Between appointments, Hunter and I went to Bensi for lunch.

I like Bensi’s food, I don’t love it, like I love “Ninos on the River” in Clinton, but it is very good.  The reason I chose to take Hunter to Bensi is I knew he could get buttered pasta there (one of like 3 things Hunter eats). We arrived at the restaurant and was seated in a nice booth toward the back. 

Of course, no need for Hunter to look at the menu as we already knew what he wanted.  I on the other hand had to choose.  The server had put in front of me, the specials sheet, lunches of the day and the HUGE regular menu.  As Hunter sat across from me asking, “who would win the fight, Sponge Bob or Wubbzy, what about Star Trek vs. Lord of the Rings, Nova or Bernie………..as his voice faded in the background I sat paralyzed looking at the unopened menu.  I knew all the delicious dishes that were in there, White Pizza with fresh mozzarella, garlic and olive oil, Prosciutto, fresh mozzarella and roasted red pepper italian sandwich, Chicken Francese with artichoke hearts, Parppardelle with shrimp, asparagus, sun-dried tomatoes and garlic sauce……………the list goes on.

Finally, I became aware of my surrounds again.  Hunter is now telling me about the “Alvin and the Chipmunks” movie that we as a family watched last weekend and Hunter watched multiple times everyday since, mostly by rewinding and replaying all his favorite parts. Here is the dilemma about choosing, do I order whatever I want because it is a special day and worry about the diet later? The problem with this is my mindset later would be “I blew it anyway, what’s the harm? I will go back on tomorrow!  In my life, tomorrow will never come.  Do I order what I want and not eat dinner?  This doesn’t work because it is the first time Dave is home all week to eat dinner with us so I need to make dinner.  A shocking thing all of a sudden popped into my head!  I could always order one of the low-fat dishes on the menu. I started to laugh in my head because I thought, “this is ludicrous, I have NEVER ordered a low-fat dish EVER from a restaurant. It can’t be done, why would you even go out to eat if you had to order low-fat. NO, NO WAY, I WON”T DO IT!!!!   Finally I shook all the evil thoughts out of my head and came to my senses.  Whew, clarity came back.  I just found out I lost 18lbs total yesterday, this morning I walked on my treadmill for 40 minutes and then did 20 minutes of weights. Why in the world would I want to blow all that hard work for food that will be forgotten about an hour after eaten.

I immediately went to the low-fat section of the Menu and decided on, Grilled Chicken over a vegetable medley with a herb, lemon and garlic marinade.  Done!  When the server came for the order Hunter told her he wanted the “adult lunch size” spaghetti with butter and a milk.  As she turned to me, I sat up straight happy with my decision and ordered the grilled chicken over vegetables and a unsweetend iced tea. Wow I can’t even express how good I felt about that.

Hot crusty bread with a pillow soft inside came to our table with that yummy oil with spices for dipping.  I ate one piece while  Hunter polished off the rest of the loaf.  Then came the salad which I had vinaigrette on the side, never did that before either.  Our main dish came and I was pleasantly surprised, my dish consisted of, spinach, cauliflower, broccoli and carrots with nice crispy (no breading) grilled chicken on top. The marinade was wonderful.  It was delicious!!! I was so very happy I made this decision. In addition, I only ate half and had the other half packed to bring home which is now in the refrigerator.  Hunter enjoyed his spaghetti and the fact he had me cornered for an hour talking non-stop 🙂

We then continued on with our day and I felt so happy! In addition to losing weight and exercising, I accomplished another first,  ordering a healthy meal for the first time in my life and feeling really, really good about it. I didn’t over stuff, I felt very comfortable and satisfied for the rest of the day.  Tonight is “movie/pizza night”, I already made a salad and have decided to have a big salad and 1 piece of pizza.  Why would I want to blow all the good choices I made today.  I want to go to bed proud of myself and know I really CAN do this……

Weight loss journey……..

Today I went to the gym for the second time this week.  I warmed up and then met with my trainer.  Jess wanted to weigh me before we started and for the first time in my life I was actually excited.  I felt that I had lost weight since last week, my jeans are loose in the butt and legs, plus the waistband isn’t rolled over this week.  Still a bit tight, but at least not rolled over 🙂   I am pretty sure one of my extra chins has gone missing too.  We went into the room, I got on the scale and…………. 6 lbs.!!!!!!  I couldn’t believe it so I had her weigh me again, yes it was 6 lbs. I literally screamed!  Jess was so proud of me as I was of myself.  She asked what I did this past week and I told her that I had cut out all carbohydrates (my downfall), ate a lot more fruit and vegetables, and the days I didn’t get to the gym, I walked 50 minutes on my treadmill at home.  I just feel more energized and excited.  The heat and me do not mix, so my goal right now is to be able to wear a sundress this summer instead of the extra long, stretchy shorts and tent sized shirts.  As a matter of fact, a half hour ago I went online and ordered a sundress that I am going to hang on the door of my closet to also motivate me.  It isn’t easy. I am definitely a stress/emotion eater.  The last blog I said I wanted to do something for myself and I haven’t wavered.  We had a very serious issue this week that is far from over, but I made it my priority to get to the gym today.  First, it took my mind off our worry and in addition it further confirms that I need to get healthy (no one is sick).  Two shows that are an inspiration to me is “Biggest Losers Couples” and “Heavy”.  The people on these shows are amazing.  I don’t need to lose anywear as much as them, but to see how hard they work and the determination they show is wonderful.  They are honest with their struggles as well.

So as of today I am down a total of 18 pounds from when I started this weight loss journey back in January!

The Beginning of the Weight Loss Journey

About a month ago I decided that enough was enough.  I needed to lose weight, I hate the way I look and feel, plus it is so hard trying to keep up with Hunter and Hayley.  On top of everything I have fibromyalgia which effects all of my joints so I am always in pain.  I have felt fat my whole entire life, though looking back through photos I realized that I really wasn’t.  Once I hit my 30’s I put on some weight, I guess staying home, raising and homeschooling the older kids, plus being diagnosed with Fibromyalgia all contributed to my weight gain. I was so busy, plus it hurt to move.  Also, I had a GREAT dislike to any kind of excercise at all!  Once I hit my 40’s and with the adoption of Hunter & Hayley and then at 42 the diagnose of Autism for Hayley and at 44 the diagnose of Aspergers for Hunter, I truely let go of myself.  I moved to Florida for 2 1/2 years to get intensive one on one behavioral therapy for Hayley as New Jersey had such a long wainting list. I was away from Dave, who is my main support, for most of that time.  He would fly down for weekends once in a while off tax season, and then take his vacation weeks in the summer and come to Florida. It still was very little, I was left with Hunter & Hayley as well as Craig & Tracey. It was such a difficult time overall.  Neither Craig nor Tracey wanted to be there so at one point when Craig really started to act out, I sent him home to Dave.  Craig spent the entire tax season doing his school in an empty office in Dave’s building. It was during this time that I completely let go.  I was so tired and stressed, I didn’t want to cook so we wound up ordering out most of the week, plus the wine after the kids went to bed certainly was very welcome. Even once I came back to New Jersey  all the stress was still there, plus more, that I won’t even go into, and so I continued to gain.  My 40’s are a blur and I feel like I woke up at 50, looked in the mirror and said “what happened to me?” That was in June, and still the months have gone by with me doing nothing to help myself.  I will say last April, Dave and I were out together during the week when the kids were in school (this is VERY rare).  We had just left lunch when he pulled into Healthquest which is an absolutely beautiful gym facility.  I looked at him and asked “WHAT are we here for????”  He just said that he would like to start excercising and maybe I would like to as well.  I didn’t say it, but I did not want to go to a gym.  We have an excercise room at home that has all the equipment you could want (mostly because of Kevin when he lived home), so if we didn’t excercise at home, what made him think me especially, would drive to the gym! We got in there and got seduced by all the wonders. Unbelievable workout floor, numerous classes, gorgeous indoor and out door pool, a cafe that sells amazing healthy food, a spa, etc.  We signed up.  I said I cannot wait to start I am so psyched!!!! I am finally going to start getting in shape before I am 50……….January 1, 2011, not even in the ballpark of feeling or looking any better.  Why? because I rarely went, I always had something I “needed” to get done…….since last April, Dave has consistently gone to the gym.  Not me.  Oh I have went on and off over time, mostly walking on the treadmill or around the track.  But since my body hurts so much, I just didn’t want to face any additional pain from the weight training or other numerous machines.  Because of all the “issues” in my house, my Psychologist said I was clinically depressed and suffering from Post-traumatic stress syndrome for a long time.  She suggested I go to a Psychiatrist for medication but I refused.  At the end of December 2010 I had my yearly physical.  As I cried through most of the visit, the doctor said “you need to go to a Psychiatrist to get medication, you and your husband are living through situations that no other person could imagine, I cannot fathom living with what you are living with”.  I found a Psychiatrist that I visited the first time the beginning of January, went through our life story, and she prescribed medication.  After 4 weeks of taking the medication I started to feel better, more positive. Things didn’t look so bleak, and I realized that some of this stuff will never go away, and I needed to make peace with it and move on.  This is what I did….  I started watching what I was eating and drinking and lost 10 lbs. in 3 weeks.  Once I lost the 10 lbs. i realized for the first time in years that I know I can do this and most importantly WANT to do this.  Mostly for myself to look good again and most importantly for my health, and for the kids so I am around alot longer (want to see those weddings Katie and Kevin, grandchildren too !)  I want to do it for Dave too (I will be mum on this).  Last month we received from Healthquest a $150.00 off coupon for personal training.  Dave knowing my struggles of getting around a gym suggested I check it out.  So I did, and today was my first appointment. I filled out papers and had a weigh in (not pretty) plus measurements taken (really not pretty) and then testing my heart rate (not too bad) and flexibility (I am not flexible in any manner). My trainer took down all the information and is putting a program together that I will start next Tuesday.  I will be going Tuesdays and Thursdays, twice a week for 6 weeks and she wants me to come in one additional day to do extra cardiovascular work.  I know all of this will take time but I am really excited, finally doing something for me.  The laundry can wait, the making of beds can wait (this will be hard but doable) and for now any appointments I make will be on a non gym day or in the afternoon.  I KNOW I can do this, my trainer pointed out to me several elderly people that have been excercising there since the gym opened. One lady was 85, one man was 87 and the last man 90!!!!  Wow they looked great and put me to shame at 50.  I guess it is never to old to start taking care of yourself and as I left the gym today and looked at all the people excercising in various ways I decided that….I AM worth it…………the journey continues……………..